sapphire02's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Depressive Rant I feel like crap. Very depressed today. I ate 3 candy bars and even kept them down. I am very tired of my life. I am nothing.less than. Not by choice or even by some deranged mental thinking. I am nothing in the eyes of someone who promised to love me. I know, I've already been there cried and stuff. I don't know why I'm bothered lately. I can't cry anymore. I take that back, I did a little today. Usually I have no tears to shed, just an empty space. I NEED an empty space. Not one to be filled with food either. I did not laugh once today. I am tired of thinking. Still no word about the job thingy. I'll probably die here. I am trying so hard to be positive. I even hide my doubts from myself. There are coming to the surface now. I hate myself and my life. There, now can everyone else stop it and leave me the hell alone!!!! 5:29 p.m. - 2002-08-26 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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