sapphire02's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Should I or should I not? It seems to me that the more I am left by myself, the more I become self-destructive. I am in the process of trying to decide whether or not to purge everything, or eat nothing. My head hurts and I know this is from the dehydration I am experiencing. I drank last night. It's so hard for me to purge the alcohol after I drink it. I think I get too relaxed, and then I think, oh what the hell, I'll just keep it. I really would like to know what my true weight is. I wore size 3 pants yesterday and tried on a size 2 dress. All I could think of was, I need to wear a size 1. My ass is much too big and must go. 7:17 a.m. - 2004-03-29 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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