sapphire02's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Tortured Yeterday I avoided my boyfrined as much as possible. I was so sad though. I think I needed him so why did I push him away? I told myself that I needed a break for a moment. But I think it's because I'm heading for a depression. I woke up feeling so tortured today. My mind is already spinning on food and calories. I just want them to go away. I want the fat to go away. Why am I stuck at this weight? What is wrong with me? In my head all I hear is Eat what you want, purge later... Eat only salad. Oh wait, but you know you'll want something else too. I don't want anything else. I just want to grow smaller. 6:44 a.m. - 2004-06-24 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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