sapphire02's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- This is hell Sometimes I push him away, I don't want him to hear the toliet flush 5 times in a row. Sometimes when he holds me close,I am busy thinking of how my bones look, and what will I allow myself to eat tonight. He begs me not to worry and I pretend that I don't, but I can't help it. I think about it all day long. I'm waiting just a few minutes more so I can purge. As soon as he walked out of the door and I ran in and got my leftovers from dinner. I ate that and pie. Now I'm guzzling mineral water. You see I'm desperate, one slice of pie has 400 calories. Who knows how many in the burrito. I want to say tomorrow will be better. I don't know that for sure. I want to think that tomorrw I won't purge at all. Then someone brings raviolis to work and tests my saniety. This is hell. I wish I could just not eat. 12:18 a.m. - 2004-06-30 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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