sapphire02's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I need to try harder I am eating peanuts and drinking wine. It's the only thing I've kept down today. Brandon is really getting upset about my ED. I feel terrible. I see how it's affecting him and I want so bad to make it better. Sometimes it just makes it worse. God, I love him and would die for him. He loves me unconditionally. He sees me as gorgeous, he loves me completely. So why am I such a screw up? I am so scared that he'll either die or leave me. I really can't live without him. He's everything to me. I pray that I never have to wake up another day without him in my life. I need to stop purging for his sake. If only for his.... I need to try harder. 1:21 a.m. - 2004-07-16 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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