sapphire02's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Honesty Four days until I am married once again. I must admit...I am filled with dread. Not because I don't love him...rather, I feel "dirty". Yet here I am. Is it not funny how when changes are upon the horizon, something often comes in to remind us just how wicked we are? I have purged all day. No one knows. They knew I was stressed. I made sure I ate little around them. Playing the timid bride-to-be. Then I excused myself and heaved in the bathroom. It's not helping. I am still here. I am still afraid. On a good note: He's been very considerate of my feelings. He knows it has to do with my past and he's been gentle with me. He stopps often to reach out and hug me. I love him so much. 11:57 p.m. - 2004-12-26 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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