sapphire02's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- My Mia came to visit So today I started binging again. I feel... Great. I know this will not last. Like all other aspects of an ED, it will soon control me. Still for now, I am in love with..... Mia. I know, I am totally cheated on Ana. She is my first love you know. I just haven't been very true of late. The guilt came in waves, along with the other pain. Mia she is the queen of chaos. She offered me her hand and I took it. I shoved it down my throat, while at work. It felt wonderful. All I had eaten was peanuts and bite-size candy, still I didn't want them in me. Tonight I took the kids out to Burger King. They gave me the wrong sandwich. So I ate it and then joyfully purged it to. I felt, great. My throat hurts but it's okay. I wrote an entry about it in Live Journal. My boyfriends sister read it. I didn't want her to know the truth so I said it was forgetfulness. Well, it is in a way. I purge the pain down the drain. Just so I can live again. My slow suicide..... 10:39 p.m. - 2003-12-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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