sapphire02's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- A week of Binges Last week, a series of binges and purges. Three times a day... My throat is raw and I have lost my voice. I hurt. I gained weight. So I'm restricting again. When I must eat around others, I purge. Mia has gotten her claws in me and she is not willing to let me go... I just wish my throat would feel better, I think that in the process of making my throat raw, I have opened a haven for germs. Hence, the reason for a sore throat. Dammit. I told my boyfriend, well he aksed. He didn't get mad at me. He jsut said that he wanted me to try and stop. When I am able. When I am able... Are we ever truly able? I lied and said okay. But I am not ready to stop. I gained that weight and it must come off. I've lost only 5 pounds of it. 15 at least must go. 9:07 p.m. - 2003-12-16 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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