sapphire02's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Purging = Sex Should I feel disgusted? I mean, I purge everything I eat...I sit and feel good when I get that gut wrentching pain in my stomach as I heave. It's orgasmic really. Sometimes as I thrust my fingers down my throat I can hear the voices of my mind screaming. "I wanna fuck your mouth!" Then I come. Spewing vomit all over. I feel disgusting, and good at the same time. My body shivers with cold afterwards. My ears ring and my knees buckle. But I feel good Maybe that's why I see Ana as my lover and Mia as my mistress. I feel as though I'm cheating on Ana when I purge. Ana is about purity. It's controlled, not chaotic like Mia Mia is all about indulgence. Filthy, messy Mia. sighs I like fucking Mia sometimes. Is that graphic? Oh yeah. 10:21 p.m. - 2004-04-14 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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